Lunch break

I wrote this article two weeks ago at work at work, during my lunch break, and then I scheduled it to be published now. So, here it is

I neither hate nor love my job right now. Which I believe is a really bad thing, cause I don't really know exactly what to feel towards it. I mean, it is exciting for now, as I am new at this and am just learning the basics (or re-learning on a very different level) the essence of my function at work.

I have been feeling kind of unproductive for the past few days at work. I don't know. I guess I'm just not in the mood to work. To give my 100%. And I do feel that it is wrong. I believe that one always has to give their best, to always try to be their best.

But I guess I'm not being my best today.

A few days ago, I realized that I am a bit shy... okay, a lot shy around people I just met. I'm relatively new at work, and I don't really connect or bond with people as fast enough as I should be I guess. So, I have to admit talking to bosses and colleagues drags a bit.

But I realized, why would I be shy? Why would I let my job not be done just because I feel awkward towards people I just (relatively) met? So after that, I started talking to them more, about work of course.

So if I'm not being slowed down by this “shyness” I possess (like I said, I'm relatively new. After warming up to the people here, I don't think I would have that problem anymore), what causes the lag on my work, my productivity ?

I guess I'm really just feeling lazy.