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Para sa Iyo,
Tulad ng sinabi ko sa text message ko sa iyo noong Biyernes, hindi ako nakikipag-away. Sinabi ko lang sa iyo yung nagiging lagay ko. Oo, I have been rude nung Thursday night pero what d’you expect? I left the place at 6 am for work, and I returned at what time? 10:30pm? 11:00pm? With music blaring loud, and your “bisitaS” still there, hanging with you. (I’d like to emphasize the S, meaning it’s more than one, like always). Would you rather have me in a confrontational state then, throwing hissy fits around? (Though I don’t really know what exactly is a hissy fit. It sounds very revolt-ey). So mas maigi na yung di ko kayo pinagpapapansin, at nagtulug-tulugan ako despite the music you’re playing. Although, I have to admit, I felt a little revenge-y then, kaya nga kahit pagod na pagod at puyat na puyat na ako, I think I still managed to disturb your sleep then.
You know what’s very wrong with what happened this week? You left me alone with your bisita, like you always do. Critical point has been reached, eh. Buti sana kung ang alam ng mga bisita mo e magka-roomies lang tayo, ang kaso your official story to everyone about us being cousins is out there, so alangan namang hayaan ko lang yung bisita mo dun, tratuhin kong invisible sila, o di kaya di ko na lang talaga pansinin. She actually asked where I am from, and I was confused kung ano ba ang isasagot ko. Should I lie? Should I tell the truth? Don’t worry, I gave an answer that would fit a gray area. Kung alam nilang roomies lang tayo, di ko man sila kausapin, tratuhin ko man silang invisible if I want to, it wouldn’t matter, kasi I am not obligated to cater to them. Hindi ako ma-oobliga na asikasuhin sila, kasi technically, bisita mo lang sila, hindi natin. I would not have the feeling of being obligated na asikasuhin ang mga bisita mo.
I’m gonna tell you the issue I had this week. When I got there mula sa ‘min nung Monday, andoon na yung bisita mo. Well, you forewarned me naman eh. Don’t misinterpret this, hindi ko issue yung mismong bisita mo; I do not have anything against them. Puyat ako noon, and I really want to sleep early. Six in the morning nga ang pasok ko di ba? Didn’t it even occur to you na I’m texting you that night kasi I want to sleep so bad already. You jokingly (I hope it was a joke) texted back asking me kung di ko na matagalan yung bisita mo. Can you recall me asking you how our sleeping arrangements will be? Kasi antok na antok na ako noon. Kasi I badly want and need to sleep na. Pero nag-overtime ka sa work mo, eh. Sinabi ko ba sa bisita mo na, “Hoy alam mo puyat ako, bahala ka dyan sa buhay mo, gusto ko na matulog!” Hindi naman di ba? I was being polite. I was accompanying your bisita. Trying to make her feel at home, make her feel not so out of place. Alam mo yun, yung hindi ko naman siya hinayaan na nakatitig na lang sa kawalan mag-isa niya. At ginagawa ko yun habang antok na antok na ako.
The next day, ganun pa rin. I was expecting you to be home, para naman asikasuhin yung bisita mo. But surprise! Umuwi ka pala sa inyo. You’re texting me on how me and your bisita should arrange our sleep. Ay naku! Late na bumalik si bisita, tapos ayun, sorry, di ko talaga masunod yung sleeping arrangement na iniinsist mo. So nung nag-insist yung bisita mo na sa sofa siya, hindi na ako tumanggi. Dahil nga pagod na pagod at antok na antok na ako.
So the next night, when your visitors moved out, it was such a relief. Again, walang problema yung bisita mo. Siya pa nga nagsabi sa kin na she’ll move na that night. Nung gabi lang na yun ko nalaman na umuwi ka pala sa inyo the day before. Di mo na nakikita that something’s wrong with what you did? Di ko naman kaibigan yung iniwan mo, di mo rin naman ako kamag-anak para ako mag-tend sa visitor mo, at di rin naman ako obligated para asikasuhin at siguraduhing hindi naO-OP yung bisita mo.
And of course, the infamous Thurday evening, kung saan yes, nagdabog ako. Nkwento ko na yung side ko of this story sa simula nitong entry.
So nung Friday, inaasahan ko I would be able to rest, play some music, maybe sing along few songs. Surprise! May bisita ka na naman. At ibang tao ulit. At wala ka ulit dun, kasi nga 2pm na ang labas ko, and 6pm ka pa uuwi. That’s when I decided to inform you. Sobra na kasi. I decided na magpunta na lang sa bangko. Pagbalik ko, aba, nandoon pa rin bisita mo. Alam mo yun? Di ako makagalaw ng maayos. Nagsumiksik lang ako sa pwesto ko, sa kama, hanggang sa dapuan ako ng antok at makatulog na talaga.
We agreed we can bring friends over. Except for 3 friends on 3 different occasions (you invited my friend over dun sa isa), na magkakalayo ang panahon na dinala ko yung mga bisita ko na yun, ala ka nang naabutan na bisita ko dun. Hindi ko hinahayaang ma-out of place ka. Hindi kami nagsasalita sa dialect na kami lang ang nakakaintindi. (Pagdating dito, I applaud your bestfriend. I do remember nung unang nagpunta siya dun, siya pa talaga ang nagsabi sa ’yo na managalog. Kasi nga kahit saan namang kultura, I believe, kabastusan yung isang grupo kayo ng mga tao tapos may isang hindi nakakaintindi ng salita ninyo, and yet lahat kayo nagsasalita in your dialect. That’s the moment I decided I like your bestfriend, kasi it showed me he knows respect. Naging komportable lang ata sya na magsalita in your dialect nung nagulat sya na na-decipher ko ang sinabi nya tungkol sa Spongebob). At hindi kita iniiwan kasama ng mga bisita ko. (Oo, I was rude during the time we were having a fight at dala-dala mo yung gang mo nun, at nagpa-iwan ako talaga nung nandun ang bestfriend mo nung unang beses na nagkita kami. Like i said, your bestfriend was straing into space a lot then, at ikaw na may sabi na problemado yung tao). Napaka-frequent kasi, at iba-ibang crowd pa.
You always said that when you were with your ex-girl, she brought out the best in you, that you were a lot better person when you are with her. I can definitely see that now. In fact, when I think about it, our fights started when you broke up with your girl. That’s when you started bringing the whole baranggay to spend three nights on what feels to be in a bi-weekly basis. Well, sana lang, this doesn’t mean you will start degrading into the person you were before you met your ex. It makes me wonder you know, why look for a roomate when you are bringing friends with you that frequent? Do you seriously want me out para nga you can let your gang hang out there freely? Then tell me so, in my face. Besides, the now less than twenty-one days you gave me in your text message doesn’t seem enough time for me to look for another place, but if you are really serious, then I will move out. You still haven’t given me a straight up answer why’d look for a roomate in the first place. But know that I still, and I think I always will look up to you, like a kuya, despite all this.
PS. This entry may be angsty, but really, I’m just trying to point things out. Sabi ka ng sabi ng “magaspang” ang ugali ko, but when I am asking you to explain to me kung paanong naging “magaspang” ang ugali ko, you just evaded the question (is it because you cannot think of an incident na magaspang nga ang ugali ko, except for that Thursday night pagdadabog that I did?)
Para sa Iyo,
Tulad ng sinabi ko sa text message ko sa iyo noong Biyernes, hindi ako nakikipag-away. Sinabi ko lang sa iyo yung nagiging lagay ko. Oo, I have been rude nung Thursday night pero what d’you expect? I left the place at 6 am for work, and I returned at what time? 10:30pm? 11:00pm? With music blaring loud, and your “bisitaS” still there, hanging with you. (I’d like to emphasize the S, meaning it’s more than one, like always). Would you rather have me in a confrontational state then, throwing hissy fits around? (Though I don’t really know what exactly is a hissy fit. It sounds very revolt-ey). So mas maigi na yung di ko kayo pinagpapapansin, at nagtulug-tulugan ako despite the music you’re playing. Although, I have to admit, I felt a little revenge-y then, kaya nga kahit pagod na pagod at puyat na puyat na ako, I think I still managed to disturb your sleep then.
You know what’s very wrong with what happened this week? You left me alone with your bisita, like you always do. Critical point has been reached, eh. Buti sana kung ang alam ng mga bisita mo e magka-roomies lang tayo, ang kaso your official story to everyone about us being cousins is out there, so alangan namang hayaan ko lang yung bisita mo dun, tratuhin kong invisible sila, o di kaya di ko na lang talaga pansinin. She actually asked where I am from, and I was confused kung ano ba ang isasagot ko. Should I lie? Should I tell the truth? Don’t worry, I gave an answer that would fit a gray area. Kung alam nilang roomies lang tayo, di ko man sila kausapin, tratuhin ko man silang invisible if I want to, it wouldn’t matter, kasi I am not obligated to cater to them. Hindi ako ma-oobliga na asikasuhin sila, kasi technically, bisita mo lang sila, hindi natin. I would not have the feeling of being obligated na asikasuhin ang mga bisita mo.
I’m gonna tell you the issue I had this week. When I got there mula sa ‘min nung Monday, andoon na yung bisita mo. Well, you forewarned me naman eh. Don’t misinterpret this, hindi ko issue yung mismong bisita mo; I do not have anything against them. Puyat ako noon, and I really want to sleep early. Six in the morning nga ang pasok ko di ba? Didn’t it even occur to you na I’m texting you that night kasi I want to sleep so bad already. You jokingly (I hope it was a joke) texted back asking me kung di ko na matagalan yung bisita mo. Can you recall me asking you how our sleeping arrangements will be? Kasi antok na antok na ako noon. Kasi I badly want and need to sleep na. Pero nag-overtime ka sa work mo, eh. Sinabi ko ba sa bisita mo na, “Hoy alam mo puyat ako, bahala ka dyan sa buhay mo, gusto ko na matulog!” Hindi naman di ba? I was being polite. I was accompanying your bisita. Trying to make her feel at home, make her feel not so out of place. Alam mo yun, yung hindi ko naman siya hinayaan na nakatitig na lang sa kawalan mag-isa niya. At ginagawa ko yun habang antok na antok na ako.
The next day, ganun pa rin. I was expecting you to be home, para naman asikasuhin yung bisita mo. But surprise! Umuwi ka pala sa inyo. You’re texting me on how me and your bisita should arrange our sleep. Ay naku! Late na bumalik si bisita, tapos ayun, sorry, di ko talaga masunod yung sleeping arrangement na iniinsist mo. So nung nag-insist yung bisita mo na sa sofa siya, hindi na ako tumanggi. Dahil nga pagod na pagod at antok na antok na ako.
So the next night, when your visitors moved out, it was such a relief. Again, walang problema yung bisita mo. Siya pa nga nagsabi sa kin na she’ll move na that night. Nung gabi lang na yun ko nalaman na umuwi ka pala sa inyo the day before. Di mo na nakikita that something’s wrong with what you did? Di ko naman kaibigan yung iniwan mo, di mo rin naman ako kamag-anak para ako mag-tend sa visitor mo, at di rin naman ako obligated para asikasuhin at siguraduhing hindi naO-OP yung bisita mo.
And of course, the infamous Thurday evening, kung saan yes, nagdabog ako. Nkwento ko na yung side ko of this story sa simula nitong entry.
So nung Friday, inaasahan ko I would be able to rest, play some music, maybe sing along few songs. Surprise! May bisita ka na naman. At ibang tao ulit. At wala ka ulit dun, kasi nga 2pm na ang labas ko, and 6pm ka pa uuwi. That’s when I decided to inform you. Sobra na kasi. I decided na magpunta na lang sa bangko. Pagbalik ko, aba, nandoon pa rin bisita mo. Alam mo yun? Di ako makagalaw ng maayos. Nagsumiksik lang ako sa pwesto ko, sa kama, hanggang sa dapuan ako ng antok at makatulog na talaga.
We agreed we can bring friends over. Except for 3 friends on 3 different occasions (you invited my friend over dun sa isa), na magkakalayo ang panahon na dinala ko yung mga bisita ko na yun, ala ka nang naabutan na bisita ko dun. Hindi ko hinahayaang ma-out of place ka. Hindi kami nagsasalita sa dialect na kami lang ang nakakaintindi. (Pagdating dito, I applaud your bestfriend. I do remember nung unang nagpunta siya dun, siya pa talaga ang nagsabi sa ’yo na managalog. Kasi nga kahit saan namang kultura, I believe, kabastusan yung isang grupo kayo ng mga tao tapos may isang hindi nakakaintindi ng salita ninyo, and yet lahat kayo nagsasalita in your dialect. That’s the moment I decided I like your bestfriend, kasi it showed me he knows respect. Naging komportable lang ata sya na magsalita in your dialect nung nagulat sya na na-decipher ko ang sinabi nya tungkol sa Spongebob). At hindi kita iniiwan kasama ng mga bisita ko. (Oo, I was rude during the time we were having a fight at dala-dala mo yung gang mo nun, at nagpa-iwan ako talaga nung nandun ang bestfriend mo nung unang beses na nagkita kami. Like i said, your bestfriend was straing into space a lot then, at ikaw na may sabi na problemado yung tao). Napaka-frequent kasi, at iba-ibang crowd pa.
You always said that when you were with your ex-girl, she brought out the best in you, that you were a lot better person when you are with her. I can definitely see that now. In fact, when I think about it, our fights started when you broke up with your girl. That’s when you started bringing the whole baranggay to spend three nights on what feels to be in a bi-weekly basis. Well, sana lang, this doesn’t mean you will start degrading into the person you were before you met your ex. It makes me wonder you know, why look for a roomate when you are bringing friends with you that frequent? Do you seriously want me out para nga you can let your gang hang out there freely? Then tell me so, in my face. Besides, the now less than twenty-one days you gave me in your text message doesn’t seem enough time for me to look for another place, but if you are really serious, then I will move out. You still haven’t given me a straight up answer why’d look for a roomate in the first place. But know that I still, and I think I always will look up to you, like a kuya, despite all this.
PS. This entry may be angsty, but really, I’m just trying to point things out. Sabi ka ng sabi ng “magaspang” ang ugali ko, but when I am asking you to explain to me kung paanong naging “magaspang” ang ugali ko, you just evaded the question (is it because you cannot think of an incident na magaspang nga ang ugali ko, except for that Thursday night pagdadabog that I did?)
3 comments:
Just what i thought...
Una sa lahat, about sa kagaspangan ng ugali mo, based from your blog, reading between the lines, masasalamin mo na...Pangalawa, two from the people you know admitted to me na medyo may problema nga sa ugali mo(i wont mention kung sino sila- well the other one sabi nya bngay mo daw yung number ko sakanya)..if until now, hindi mo parin alam kung anu problema mo, dont expect me to tell it to you...coz i wont do that, i have nothing to explain or i dont need to site incidents just to prove what people about your manner etc...i am not like that...yes, i am not perfect, pero like what i said hindi mo nman ako katulad...Siguru nga minsan mo lang ginawa yung kabastusan mo na yun...pero ni minsan d ko tintrato mga bisitaS mo ng ganun...yes, we're just roomies, we are not obliged na pakitunguhan mga bisita mo o bisita ko...pero i still managed to act properly sa mga bisita mo... i am making them feel comfy sa hauz, offering them ng kung anu anu...kasi yun ang paniniwla ko na tamang gawin na dapat pagtrato sa bisita...which i expected you to do as well.
From your write-up above, it really reflects your personality, i dont need to explain why...your write-up will speak. nasabi ko na gusto ko sabhin...decision has been made...
Siguru nga minsan mo lang ginawa yung kabastusan mo na yun...pero ni minsan d ko tintrato mga bisitaS mo ng ganun...
Pero gaya nga ng sinabi ko, I'm never letting you na maabala pa sa pagdadala ko ng mga bisita. You on the other hand, it has been all too frequent. Even if you tally the times you brought visitors against the times I brought mine, you'd win by a landslide. And madalas, andun ako palagi. Maybe I should've said what my problems in the first place, and maybe you would have done the same. So when I finally said what I feel was very wrong (and I think there's people who'd agree with me) with the situation I am in, tingnan mo naman, you attacked me crazily.
I don't know, I'm not regretting meeting you, though. It's just too bad we had to part ways like this; I'd always thought it's when either you or I got another job and we had to move near our place of work.
Attacking you crazily?hehehehe
tsk tsk...you are the one who posted about what happened (here in your blog), i guess its normal for me to react and have a comment on this...
know what irritated me and boost my temper? the text message which you have sent me stating: " Aun. hawak nnman nya phone nya, siguro nagtext nnman siya sayu"...napaka paranoid mo, napaksama ng iniicp mo sa kapwa mo...wala gngwa yung tao sayo...she even didnt text me and told me bago siya umuwi to say thank you sayo...
Its not the frequency ng pagdadala ng bisita ko(FYI;hindi ako nagdadala ng bisita, bumibisita sila, kaya wla ako choice but to accept them, hindi ako yung tao na pagttbuyan sila!)kundi sa ugali mo talaga...kaya nga bisita, they wont stay there that long...they are just for a visit.
Yeah for christ sake, some people would agree with you, coz they dont know the real story, the other side of the story...i doubt you have showed them the text messages you have sent me before i bursted out...but its ok...like what i said, hindi ko na sana papatulan to...pero ur just making it as an issue...
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